I’m not okay and I think it’s rather obvious that I’m not. I’m trying to get back into the groove of things but the reality of it is that I’m still recollecting myself. Joe was way too young and too lively of a person to be laying in a casket. How his family can be organizing a charity in his name in the midst of such a tragedy is amazing. Hopefully the fast-paced quarter system and squeezed in work hours will help with the healing process because he’s in a better place now and I shouldn’t dwell on his death when even his dad urged us all to celebrate his life by living ours.

I’ve been sleeping a whole lot and it doesn’t seem to ever be enough. I wake up tired and only wanting to go back to sleep, even hours after a nap. Really? Skipping 9AM classes because I don’t feel well rested even after putting in special effort to get a solid eight hours? Not acceptable. To top it off, I think I might be coming down with something. I’m not sure a $20 co-pay to see a doctor is worth it right now, unless it’s one as witty as Doctor House.

Got myself a pair of Bordeaux’s. They’re sexier than I thought they’d be. I can’t wait to wear them tomorrow to see my roomie race! I might even go crazy and wear these to kick boxing. False, it’s actually not too crazy. For some reason, wearing these around for the last couple hours has made my ankle feel so much better. Maybe Jordans were the answer to my bad ankle all these years…

I miss being in a relationship but I don’t think I’d take one very seriously even if I found someone worth risking everything for. I miss having someone to worry about, call for no reason, snuggle with, fantasize the future with, yes, but I think I’m still too scared of getting hurt. If someone were down to be a buddy for things like overpriced dinners, movie nights, or gliderport runs, I need to know!!! I’d settle for someone who could teach me to chuck/forehand a frisbee and still have it glide would be just as good though.

I hate it when I think I know the answer to a question but hesitate to answer because I’m scared of being wrong, only to then be asked a question directly that I don’t know the answer to. Lately, that’s been happening to me a lot. New strategy: Answer the first questions asked because they tend to be the easier ones. This way, I’ll seem like I’ve participated and won’t have to deal with that awkward moment when I can’t answer the question with confidence and hesitate.

April 19th, 2011 is going to be the day unless my artist can’t schedule me for a later time that day. After physics, the ink and needles are coming out! Get K-Leezy’s chest waxed, hold KiD CuDi’s hand so the tattoo doesn’t hurt too badly. Sounds like a pretty good day to me! I’m just scared to know how my bank accounts will look afterwards. I put down a deposit and I’ll be dropping at least a C-Note to cover the entire cost once it’s done. I need a higher paying job, forreal.

Getting a “Have fun at work” text when things are slow, running into people I know unexpectedly, random compliments, recognizing the one person that’s in all of my classes, my bed, the sun being out, short lines, finding cash, successfully fixing the internet, Ben and Jerry’s Phish Food, Almay Eye Make-Up remover pads, stars, new co-workers, mixtapes, sweats, hot showers, passing notes in class, knocks on the door, burning abs, long car rides along the shore.

My youngest sister is graduating middle school, my other younger sister is going to be a high school senior next year. I definitely feel old but so proud of them. I was helping my little genius with graduation/exit interview shopping and I teared when she came out in the dress I found for her. The other one recently asked me how she’d know when she is ready to go to college and I answered with just hugging her. BAH! They’re growing up!

My hair has been extremely annoying. My bangs just don’t like to cooperate when I need it to most. I don’t think I’m going to cut it or anything until I grow it out more so I can play with my options. I’m thinking more layers with a lion’s tail this time.

I want to do summer session but I’m not sure where. I’ve crossed out the UC’s, including UCSD because it would cost me way too much for just half the summer. I’m thinking SAC since it’s on the way to work for my mommy since she’s not too thrilled with getting me my own car now that I stay out later than she’d like. Boo…I miss Summer 2009 at GWC.

Cigarettes will forever be a turn off for me. I consider them as bad as if the person were doing hard drugs. Me no like at all…